Cowardice is hiding behind a Mask
you present to the world
one of Competence and Perfection
and no Flaws or Vulnerabilities or
Weaknesses showing anywhere.
Courage is slowly and gently taking off that Mask
a little at a time to reveal your True Self
and then hanging it on the Wall
and being able to point to it
and laugh at yourself for ever needing
to wear it at all.
Cowardice is pretending All is Well
when it Most Definitely is not
and putting on a Show every day
so the real Pangs and Hurts of life stay in the shadows.
Courage is saying, Oh my God, I am dying
I am aching, I am in so much pain right now
and letting yourself fall to your knees saying,
Please help me, I can’t pretend anymore.
Cowardice is telling and living such Big Falsehoods
things you tell yourself and others
things that make you Look Good and Not Messy At All
that you back yourself into such a Big Lie that
when it’s time to Tell the Truth all you can bear to say is
“I can’t do this, it’s too real.”
Courage is being able to Tell on yourself,
to say, “I’m scared, I’m hurt, I’m lonely,
I don’t know how to do this and
I’m afraid you won’t Love me if you know how Weak I am right now,”
even if it makes you More Afraid when you say it Out Loud.
Courage is being able to stand still
to speak the truth
to yourself and to another
to reveal who you truly are
warts and fears and insecurities and all
to know that you are deeply and
infinitely loved and lovable
exactly as you are in this moment
and in every moment that follows.
July 7, 2009